Dizzy Spider Poem By Genevieve H Jan 2010

Dizzy Spider Poem By Genevieve H Jan 2010

NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY
NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY NO BODY NO BO­DY
GLASS SPIDER PINK SPIDER GLASS PINK GLASS
Glass Spider Pink Spider
The water’s all gone. Hurt
Who hurt who hurt who hurt who hurt

If this is [–] also then what’s to
stop me from the other.
I am so out of control.
Why am I living?
Everybody’s got somebody.
Shining Star, everybody’s
covered in scabs!
Why is this making me break.
Fuck
What makes me want to [–]
My lack of control
My anger- lack of control of anger
Depression
Lack of movement
Failure to impress or be loved
or make an impression or feel
something other than longing

LONGING unfulfillment
I don’t feel fulfilled
I am a half-eaten fruit
I will now rot.
And attract the flies
Become the soil of the earth

Is that a sign?

Believe in nothing
NOBODY

See value
worth
WORTH IN ME
Time is crawling

My arm is stung by nail bees
It feels good
I feel unfulfilled

They do this to me
Who wants a crazy bit(scribbles)ch
H(scribbles)

Worth is irrelevant
Worthless
The work is not worth the
work is not worth worth
Worthless
Loveless
Rotting

You don’t miss me you dumb motherfucker
I know where the tools are
I saw them today
My arm is twitching
I want to stab this pen in an eye
TOO DIZZY
Maybe if I
stop breathing just for tonight
I’ll stop thinking
perhaps
I’m too much of a
coward
too smart though not smart
enough for anyone to want me
I want to pass out
how do I make myself
pass out without making noise

Everything in the room
is an implement

This past I dont
want to revisit
although maybe I
was better then
less bitter less
upsettable less
worthless

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